Frocks, women over 50 and shameful bullies

I’ve been taking a kind of Twitter break over the past few weeks. I’ve been posting photos and blog posts and replying to tweets about them but I’ve not instigated a series of tweets or joined in a conversation until this morning. When I had a look at my timeline this morning there was a… Continue Reading Frocks, women over 50 and shameful bullies

Perspective, plums and lemon & lime curd

Ogden went to Rob’s yesterday as he usually does on Wednesdays and an hour or so after he went I had to pop out to the shops. I was surprised to see him walking down the street with Rob as I’d never seen them like that before. Ogden was walking well on the lead and… Continue Reading Perspective, plums and lemon & lime curd

Today nothing happened

It’s three weeks until I go away for a few days and I’m getting excited about it. I took Ogden on the last two occasions and that proved to be stressful for both of us so this time he’s staying with a pet sitter for a few day. Today I bought the mini toiletries to… Continue Reading Today nothing happened

Planning, Photographs, Pokémon Go and a Pie

I have started putting the decisions I made into action and it feels quite good. Today I sent the email that delivers my opinions on a report but also, just before I signed it, says I’m not going to be doing any community work any more. I’m going to attend community meetings (perhaps) but that’s… Continue Reading Planning, Photographs, Pokémon Go and a Pie

Psychosis and the washing up bowl

At least half a dozen times today I’ve filled the washing up bowl and each time the water has disappeared. I’ve done things that demand concentration and attention to detail and it has worn me out so for a while I thought I was mistaken. Then I realised that I wasn’t mistaken and that the… Continue Reading Psychosis and the washing up bowl

Decisions, decisions, decisions

I’m not good at doing nothing. I have to be doing something and the art of doing nothing has become about mindfulness – I’ve been practising proper mindfulness for over 10 years not this concentrate on your breathing crap that people sell as mindfulness. Mindfulness isn’t doing nothing of course, you’re actually acutely aware of… Continue Reading Decisions, decisions, decisions

On lowering my expectations and learning to take the pressure off

I’m still a bit shell shocked by the news I got on Tuesday. It actually all makes a bit more sense now I’ve learned a little about what executive functions are. I have to talk things through thoroughly with a few people and then I’ll feel more at ease and less dis-eased because right now… Continue Reading On lowering my expectations and learning to take the pressure off

Eric, executive functions and exhaustion

I had an appointment with a consultant psychiatrist this afternoon. Eric and I go way back – 15 years – and he was the first consultant I saw when it became obvious that the brand of bipolar I have was way too much for junior doctors to get their heads round. He hadn’t been in… Continue Reading Eric, executive functions and exhaustion

Insomnia, rats and the cat that won’t stop purring

I am not sleeping well and haven’t been for a month or so now. It’s not the hot weather it’s all bipolar stuff but last night was the worst of all. I was wide awake until 1.00 when I fell asleep. At 4.30 a great big purring lump jumped on my bed (how he got… Continue Reading Insomnia, rats and the cat that won’t stop purring

The first 90 days, a murmuration of starlings and hashtag mania

The 90 days refers to the first 90 days of sobriety. They’re hard and anybody that tells you otherwise is fooling themselves and lying to you. Sobriety is hard work however long it is since you had a drink and the temptation to drink a glass of death is always far too close for comfort.… Continue Reading The first 90 days, a murmuration of starlings and hashtag mania