The kitchen, stress, dog, stress, cats, stress

I think it’s fair to say that, reading from the title of this particular blog post, you can guess I’ve had a stressful day. The old kitchen got stripped out this morning and it’s going to take about two weeks to become the new one. The council have a contractor to do them and each… Continue Reading The kitchen, stress, dog, stress, cats, stress

New Year’s Eve in the Beefeater

Ten years ago I was in a miserable relationship which had been going on for 13 years. For nine of those years I had been actively trying to escape from it and two years before that I knew it wasn’t what anybody would term as normal. We met at an AA meeting and the worst… Continue Reading New Year’s Eve in the Beefeater

Few words, lots of feelings

Fifty five years ago today my brother was born. He was the third (and final) child in the family. He was the only boy and being the only boy and the youngest of us he had us all under his spell. There are photos of him as a cheeky five year old, a serious eight… Continue Reading Few words, lots of feelings

Let’s talk about communities

In any village, town or city there are distinct communities. Some of them are geographical and some begin because a cause unites them or there is a need to fight a perceived enemy. For some of the the communities that are unorganized in structure but strong in bond (usually those people who have lived in… Continue Reading Let’s talk about communities

Of Eric and Ogden

At the end of July I had a consultation with a psychiatrist that I’d know fn a long time. I was feeling manic and had done for nearly a year and it had stemmed from an attempt to go medication free. Being medication free is the Holy Grail for most people with mental health problems… Continue Reading Of Eric and Ogden

Adrenalin, extractions and missing the point

A blog I intended to write but a hat tip to @Post40Bloggers who have a phobia writing prompt. I have a long standing dental phobia that began with forced dentistry as a child and worked it’s way up to a full blown phobia (I can’t even sit in a dental chair for a check up… Continue Reading Adrenalin, extractions and missing the point

Desperate and deranged

I have had three days of hell. I know people describe days as “hell-like” a lot but when the hell is in your own mind and conspiring against you it really is bloody hellish. I’ve tried to get across to my GP and a psychiatrist that I’ve been manic for over a year now and… Continue Reading Desperate and deranged

And then there were none…

After seven years of living with rats I am now rat free. It is the end of an era that has had blindingly bright times of sheer joy and dark moments of despair and it’s been wonderful. My first pair of rats were Fen and Ella – they were greedy and lazy and their hobby… Continue Reading And then there were none…

How have I succeeded? Let me count the ways and an afternoon with racist women

I’ve just been patting myself on the back for what I’ve managed to do the past few days. Most of it has been laundry and housework and after a few days of being laid up with a cold-like virus I was, for a change, happy to do it. One of the things I say a… Continue Reading How have I succeeded? Let me count the ways and an afternoon with racist women

Test results, teeth and surly administrators

After what seemed like a million years I found out this afternoon I have a lovely healthy brain. It’s the right shape, size and weight and there is no evidence of vascular damage and it couldn’t be in better condition. This brings up more questions than answers in a way about the symptoms I’ve been… Continue Reading Test results, teeth and surly administrators