I’m turning my Twitter into a largely silent account. I’m going to tweet photos from my Flickr account because it improves the view rate and I’m going to continue to auto tweet my blog and Instagram photos but that’s it.
I’m not going to use the account actively. There will be no more interaction with people I follow or who follow me, no more wittering on about my day. Twitter is taking up time that I need in order to get well and, to be brutally honest, some people are pissing me off big time.
I’m really quite ill at the moment and I’ve activated my LPA for the first time in a long time. I’m no longer making the decisions that have to be made about my finances or health alone. I’m waiting for an appointment with a psychiatrist because my medication is no longer working efficiently and I just cannot cope with life.
There are some people on my social network who purport to be friends and yet do not behave as friends do. The problem with social networks is that it magnifies the shortcomings in relationships of any kind. The people who are lukewarm as friends whilst saying that you’re important to them are barely tolerable when it comes to social media.
I have to divorce myself from those people and the other emotional leeches and trolls that creep around the internet looking for virtual blood to suck.
This sounds angry but I’m just weary of it all. I know that if people read this then there will be a degree of “she doesn’t mean it, she’s ill” thinking going on. No. I feel like this and being ill means that Twitter has to go because I need the time to recover and be myself again.
As I’ve said, photos and blog posts will appear on my timeline but there’ll be no interaction with people anymore. I’m going to be selfish about this because sometimes being selfish is the way forward.
There are a people I will miss of course. There’s a certain shoe loving, goat keeping Doctor Who fan who I adore but she’ll understand if she reads this. I’ll miss a particular person with a mental health problem who has been fighting against a health trust and who I admire a great deal but these two people don’t make up for all the negativity and lack of empathy that runs through my timeline.
I’ve never fitted into society very well and I don’t with Twitter. It’s become more and more a place where cliques form and they only just tolerate people who are on their fringes. There was a time when people would ramble on and it was quite charming but rambling isn’t good enough anymore.
As I type it’s been about 48 hours since I tweeted a stand alone tweet. I’ve tweeted some photos and responded to one person who I know in real life and yet nobody has asked if I’m ok. Speaks volumes.