I met with my GP today and we had a good long talk. It was mostly “off topic” but also on topic.
He asked me why I hadn’t been to see him for a number of months and I told him of my decision to only visit the surgery every three months so that I can have a clearer picture of what is going on and also because more frequent visits take up time and energy I don’t always have. He agreed that this was a positive step forward and that, if need be, he will still see me at almost a moments notice when my mental health problems become acute.
We then discussed the thoughts I’ve had recently about stopping taking my last remaining mood stabiliser. As I age my management of manic depression/bipolar disorder improves and the people who support me are more experienced at helping me. I don’t really believe that you should take any more medication than is absolutely necessary and I won’t even take the maximum dose of painkillers allotted to me because, after all, they are just poisons if handled wrongly and so why would anybody fill themselves with poisons if they don’t need them.
He’s agreed that we can go ahead and try a tapering off programme but only in the Spring as I have a tendency to lowness in the winter and go into hibernation mode and I’ve agreed that this is sensible.
I didn’t resolve to try to reduce my medication this year but this feels like a step forward that I have to take. If it doesn’t work out then I won’t consider it a failure but a worthwhile experiment that didn’t work the way I thought it might.
Onwards and upwards.